Guilty as charged

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One of the most inexorable state of mind wherein its faculties tend to become the food of the state itself. The two components of it are guilty to oneself and towards others. Repentance and remediation come into play and assertiveness decreases. Mistrust and blames tend to make you a hangdog.

The guilty to oneself urges one to incessantly ask the same question “Why”. The guilty towards other urges one to perpetually ask the question “Howcome”. The spectre and its consequences leave you with mental ailments. People lose faith in your words as well as actions. Recuperation from the result of your misdeed reminds the affected ones how they believed in you and within a moment you filched it.  You wish you could just turn back Time and rectify everything. You want them to look at you the same way they used to earlier, but that flare of confiding in you is missing and it kills you.

How tired God must be of guilt and loneliness, for that is all we ever bring to Him.  ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960.

N.B.: This post is the result of me feeling guilty for a road accident few months back wherein my pillion rider suffered injuries just because I was out of my mind trying to prove I don’t know what and to whom. So many years of driving experience is rendered useless and novices now taunt me.

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